Chapter Four - We Agnostics |
The chapter begins with perhaps the most concise and definitive statement of our common problem in the literature, and again names the solution outlined in this book:
If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic. If that be the case, you may be suffering from an illness which only a spiritual experience will conquer. (Page 44)The agnostic or atheist has a dilemma: "To be doomed to an alcoholic death or to live on a spiritual basis are not always easy alternatives to face." (Page 44) This is identical to the alternatives posed in There Is A Solution (Page 25), and hints at the "turning point" mentioned in How It Works (Page 59) The authors have found that can we cannot create that spiritual basis by ourselves through better morals or philosophy, for in this area (as well as with alcohol itself), "[o]ur human resources, as marshalled by the will, were not sufficient; they failed utterly." (Page 45) Finding a Power by which we could live is said to be "what this book is about."
Reassuring the doubtful reader, the authors state that around half their number were once agnostic or atheist, but were able to overcome this obstacle. Some of the reasons cited for non-belief in a Higher Power are: rejecting an idea of God imposed on them in childhood, disbelief that a God could exist in a world full of war, suffering and evil (known in Philosophy as The Problem of Evil) and the inability to rationally comprehend or define God.
In this chapter, no personal testimony is offered, but we do see general statements of the authors' experience, practical examples and appeals to Reason. The alert reader, however, will recall that Bill outlines his own struggle with Reason vs Faith in his story (Pages 10-13). Bill was "hit hard" by Ebby's suggestion to consider his own conception of God (Page 12) and began to be encouraged at that point. Not only can we adopt our own conception of God, it need not be a firm, clearly defined idea. The authors here point out that, "...we discovered we did not need to consider another's conception of God. Our own conception, however inadequate, was sufficient to make the approach and to effect a contact with Him." (Page 46) They also state that,
We found that as soon as we were able to lay aside prejudice and express even a willingness to believe in a Power greater than ourselves, we commenced to get results, even though it was impossible for any of us to fully define or comprehend that Power, which is God. (Page 46)The authors also state that, "we used our own conception, however limited it was." (Page 46) and that we need not at first accept many truths on faith right away, that we could "commence at a simpler level." (Page 47) The common experience of watching a sunset with awe and wondering who made it is cited as a small beginning of faith. "As soon as a man can say that he does believe, or is willing to believe, we emphatically assure him that he is on his way." (Page 47 - near this passage we see a footnote directing us to read the Appendix on "Spiritual Experience") Thus, the spiritual alternative looks less daunting and more inviting that before.
We are next treated to a series of appeals to the Intellect, which the authors sum up thus: "Hence we are at pains to tell why we think our present faith is reasonable, why we think it more sane and logical to believe than not to believe." (Page 53) We believe many theories these days, if they are grounded in fact. For example, take electricity: we use it in everyday life and accept without doubt theories as to how it works, since we see the results, but we do not fully understand these theories. We need the theories to understand what we see every day. Scientists tell us that a steel girder is in fact made of many swirling electrons, and that they are subject to laws that apply throughout the Universe. Is it not reasonable to assume a Creative Intelligence lay behind it all?
By the same line of reasoning,
We have learned that whatever the human frailties of various faiths may be, those faiths have given purpose and direction to millions. People of faith have a logical idea of what life is all about. Actually, we used to have no reasonable conception whatever. (Page 49)In other words, like electricity, we can see that faith works (though we may understand neither of them). The authors cite their own experience, some of which is shared in detail in the personal stories. Given the evidence in so many individuals of the power of faith, and the effect it has had in their lives, does it make sense to cling to the belief that there is no Higher Power? "When many hundreds of people are able to say that the consciousness of the Presence of God is today the most important fact of their lives, they present a powerful reason why one should have faith." (page 51)
Next the authors discuss prejudice. It hindered our ancestors for many centuries, during which material progress was very slow. These days we are ready to throw out a theory that doesn't work for a new one that does. Prejudice, in the form of stubbornly sticking to our old ideas in spiritual matters and animosity toward organized religion and it adherents may be holding us back from a solution to our common problem. "When we saw others solve their problems by a simple reliance upon the Spirit of the Universe, we had to stop doubting the power of God. Our ideas did not work. But the God idea did." (Page 52)
Logic and Reason are wonderful things, but they are not always used properly, and they do not provide everything we need. Who has not "worshipfully beheld the sunset, the sea, or a flower? Who of us had not loved something or somebody? How much did these feelings, these loves, these worships, have to do with pure reason? Little or nothing, we saw at last." (Page 54)
The authors bring home the message with this passage:
"[D]eep down in every man, woman, and child, is the fundamental idea of God. It may be obscured by calamity, by pomp, by worship of other things, but in some form or other it is there. For faith in a Power greater than ourselves, and miraculous demonstrations of that power in human lives, are facts as old as man himself.They conclude with the second of two firsthand accounts of a sudden, dramatic spiritual experience , the first coming in Bill's Story. Unlike Bill, this man was an atheist. However, like Bill, he was in the hospital and had admitted complete defeat. Also like Bill, he had begun to question his disbelief after hearing the testimony of others. His desire to drink was taken away immediately and it has not returned. "To this man, the revelation was sudden. Some of us grow into it more slowly. But He has come to all who have honestly sought Him." (Page 57) The personal story containing this event can be found on Page 208 (Fourth Edition) under the title Our Southern Friend.We finally saw that faith in some kind of God was a part of our make-up, just as much as the feeling we have for a friend. Sometimes we had to search fearlessly, but He was there. He was as much a fact as we were. We found the Great Reality deep down within us. (Page 55)